25 Weeks - I have HOW many weeks left??

My lovely OBGYN has deemed my due date to be one day later than initially thought, which put me into a tiny depression. A day is just a day after all but I am just SO. DAMN. TIRED.

Tired of being big and being told "just wait, you're going to get SO huge!!!!"
Tired of having to watch what I eat and wonder if little bubs is getting everything her tiny body needs.
Tired of leaving a ridiculous space between me and the car in front of me when I'm driving because a car accident with this belly seems fatal to wee one.
Tired of peeing a little when I sneeze really hard.
Tired of pregnancy related woes in general.

Yes, I'm whining. I realize that I'm being a child about this whole thing but it just got to me last night - I have several more months of this and, as people are so delightedly telling me, it just gets worse as time goes on. I'm concerned that doc told me Baby is measuring long, and that I'll probably have a large baby, coupled with people telling me that I'll probably deliver late. I would prefer not to give birth to a toddler, after all. Couldn't I just give birth to a baby on time, and have her a healthy (less painful) size? Is that possible?

Her feisty little kicks and jabs tell me no, that she's just going to be monstrous (and hopefully  monstrously adorable and healthy.) I'm grateful to be pregnant, don't get me wrong - I have friends who are struggling and I realize how very, VERY lucky we are to have an easy-going pregnancy when there are those who would love to be in my shoes. But sometimes I just want to stick out my bottom lip and have a pregnant temper tantrum. I think the main issue is not the physical discomfort of pregnancy, but the emotional discomfort of it. I'm not myself, I feel no connection to myself - I'm really just a vessel for this little person, who I love, but the emotional pain of pregnancy is excruciating at times. I didn't account for feeling that way when I got pregnant.

And then sometimes, when I get a little kick or she does a flip in there, I am very happy to be pregnant. It goes by quickly, or so I'm told. And this may be the only time I'm ever pregnant, so I should try to enjoy it. It's just hard to remember the very important purpose behind all of this, and that is that when it's all over, I'll have a beautiful little girl to snuggle and love and raise and she'll be my whole world. I just hope that I can retain some of my old "sense of self" that I used to have; something I honestly never realized how much I actually cared about.

I'm sure it is a feeling that will come and go, thanks to hormones!

And as promised, here is the bumpdate:

How far along?: 25 weeks, 1 day

Baby is the size of a: Acorn Squash

Total weight gain/loss:  20lbs still

The Bump: I keep getting told that I look bigger, but I don't think I grew too much this week.

Symptoms/How I'm feeling: Just feeling very pregnant. Feeling.... less like a person and more like a house, and that is difficult sometimes. 

Food Cravings/Aversions: None, but I'm trying to eat less crap! I would like to crave things like fruit and veggies but I'm not not interested. I'd almost put those under the aversions category.  

Sleep: Not too bad actually. Besides a little heartburn. 

Weddings Rings On or Off: On

Exercise: Walking. 

Any Names Picked Out Yet: Yes - we have one or two we really like. Will reveal when she comes!

Gender: Girl!

Movement: Increases every week! She's doing fancier things now, it really catches me off guard sometimes.

Maternity Clothes: Yep. No turning back now!

Labor Signs: None yet, but I read that I may start experiencing Braxton Hicks contractions this early! I don't know why that is exciting but it is!

What I miss: Same as always - I just miss my body being my own (and one that I recognize!)

Best Moment of the Week: Feeling a weird little somersault she did. She's really growing! 

What I’m excited about/looking forward to: I'm not sure when it will be but I want to get another ultrasound! I am looking forward to seeing her again.