I know, it's a little premature (haha) to be thinking of that at this point as I currently have 28 days left until my actual due date, and as people are so fond of telling me, it's normal for first time moms to deliver late. Blah. I'm just going to pretend that I don't know that. I think telling yourself little white lies at times like these helps to make the days go by a little faster.
Especially considering how unbelievably uncomfortable I already am. And I know there's more to come because this baby is just going to get bigger. I just cannot imagine. So I won't.
Had a lovely lunch yesterday with two awesome friends and one of their babies. Seeing that little girl really made me want my own little girl OUT! Carrying her has been an enriching experience, and not always a pleasant one, but I'm definitely ready to get the show on the road! I know motherhood is tough but I also know it's worth it. And it's something I feel like I'm never going to experience because it feels like I've been pregnant for EVER!
I also snagged some awesome baby gear from my friend, which I'm very grateful for. Jared and I are not made of money so we are happily taking hand-me-downs!
I'm getting more and more curious and fearful about labour. When I ask most people about it, they say it usually starts with bad period like cramps. I know what those can be like, so okay, got it. But what about when they increase in intensity? I've heard that they feel like:
- the biggest bowel movement ever
- intense "tightenings"
- the worst pain ever
- something is ripping you open from the inside out
and my personal favourite so far:
- a pain you could never possibly imagine
Goody! What am I supposed to do with that information? How do I know if I will be able to cope with it or not? And the funny thing is, I'm planning on getting the epidural, so I'm really just talking about the not-so-bad contractions before I get to about 4 centimeters or something. God FORBID I don't get the epidural. That will send me right over the edge!
I know my body will do what it is supposed to do, but it's getting increasingly terrifying.
One thing I'm a little sad about this week: I won't be able to see my friends for our annual labour day camping trip. Usually I go for at least a night, and it's pretty fun, often very chilly at night but nothing too crazy. I'm in my 9th month now and can't realistically go out to an area with no cell reception and no hospital for miles around. Even for a few hours. I don't even know if I can go next year, either, at least not with Baby. It does get very chilly at night and she'd be so small and vulnerable. I am definitely looking forward to camping trips as a family though. I've always loved camping and can't wait to watch her experience camping the way I did!
How far along?: 36 weeks
Baby is the size of a(n): Honeydew Melon (feels more like a watermelon, surrounded by other watermelons. Very big.)
Total weight gain/loss: 30 lbs (starting to feel a little sad looking at the scales I'll be honest)
The Bump: Growing - a lot. I actually feel like I may explode. One slight bump in the wrong direction and I'll pop like a water balloon. It's very sensitive, hard and hurts when touched.
Symptoms/How I'm feeling: Back at work, but honestly I feel too worn out to be here. This constant rib/back pain I've been feeling is getting very old, very fast, and sitting in an office chair makes it worse. Emotionally, I'm ready for this baby to arrive. I'm excited to meet her and believe it or not I'm a little (TINY BIT) sad that the pregnancy is almost over. I know I'm miserable right now, but I also know how special it is to be pregnant.
Food Cravings/Aversions: I've been staving off my juice cravings since, what, the beginning of my 2nd trimester? Beyond that, just sweet stuff, like cookies. I also can't be bothered to cook, which makes it a little harder to eat healthy. Aversions - salads have turned me right off for months. I don't even buy lettuce anymore. I'm happy to heat up some frozen veggies but that's the extent of that. I'm pretty good with fruit though.
Sleep: Better. I think baby is going through some growth spurts, because sometimes I sleep quite comfortably, and other times my belly aches (feels like pulled muscles) every time I move.
Weddings Rings On or Off: Off. I hate not wearing them. Not that being pregnant necessarily invites men to pursue me. The swelling isn't too bad though and doesn't hurt.
Exercise: Walking, but very slowly. I can barely move my body these days. I have 4 weeks to go too!
Any Names Picked Out Yet: Yes! TBA at birth.
Gender: Girl!
Movement: Picking up again. She's running out of space so I feel a lot of frustrated nudges from her. As uncomfortable as I am I still feel badly for her. At least I have room to stretch out in my environment!
Maternity Clothes: 100% (besides yoga pants)
Labor Signs: Contractions. Nothing regular. They do hurt though. I am very concerned about labor, and how I'll react to the pain. I'm hoping I can keep my head, at least.
What I miss: Comfort in general is something that is getting farther out of reach as the weeks creep on. I just miss not being pregnant and will be happy to have her out!
Best Moment of the Week: Seeing a couple of friends - seriously, I don't go out much. Also, I got a parking spot at work so I don't have to walk 15 minutes to and from my car everyday. That doesn't seem like much but as I mentioned, I'm moving awfully slowly and it's painful!
What I’m excited about/looking forward to: Reaching that full term date. 37 weeks is considered full term and I'm going to be SO excited to be expecting a baby within weeks! Also, my shower is next weekend, and that's going to be fun, and the LAST time I get to see a lot of people before baby! Plus it will give me a good idea of what else we need to get for her. Last minute item shopping for a very exciting event!
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