I miss not being pregnant. Badly. I'm a little tired of being in this transitional stage where I'm not yet a mother but I'm also not a non-mother anymore, either. I want to get the show on the road and try out this parenting thing. I want to test out my new stuff; the clothes, crib, diapering, swaddling, nursing, moby-wrapping, baby-wearing... I want to try out the 5 S's I read about in my book about soothing a baby. I want to dress her up in her Halloween costume. I want to buy her Christmas presents and take her to meet Santa.
I want to be Me again, or whatever version of Me I'll be when she's here. I know babies can change a person but I'd still like to have some semblance to the old Lauren. The parts I liked, anyway.
All of this came to light when I realized just how used to being pregnant I have become. I don't even have to think about leaving extra space for my belly when opening doors or slipping between cars in a parking lot. I have adjusted to my new way of bending down (very attractive) without having to give it a thought. Realizing how accustomed I have become to my current state just made me frustrated that I'm still in this state!
Seriously, as amazing as pregnancy is, no one tells you just how long 9 months actually is. It's pretty long.
That being said, the weeks have somehow started to fly by. I have 9 weeks to go, for goodness sake! And what progress - Baby Girl is nearly her birth length, though she could gain another 3 - 5 pounds in the meantime. She can process information like light-tracking and sounds, and, if she wasn't living in amniotic fluid, she could smell things! She's been exploring more, pushing up against my uterine walls with her hands and feet, and is probably spending a lot of her time sucking her thumb!Quite a change from the mindless little sea monkey that was floating around in there months ago. She's a little person now!
Both of us are quickly running out of room. She's been a lot more about the shoving lately than the gentle kicks and taps I've felt before. Sometimes they hurt, or send me running to the bathroom because she's decided my bladder is a bongo drum. I've also been short of breath and no wonder - the uterus has literally shoved my lungs aside to make room for baby. Apparently I'll be able to breathe again when she drops. Honestly the human body was really not designed to carry a person inside it for 9 months.
All complaints aside, I'm in love with her kicks and rolls and am ready to be a parent. READY. Honestly if the two goobers in Knocked Up could do it, Jared and I will be A-Okay.
How far along?: 31 weeks (That's NINE weeks to go! Hooray for single digits!)
Baby is the size of a(n): Pineapple
Total weight gain/loss: 23 lbs (that's right -- I've actually lost 2lbs this past week. She appears to be fine, though.)
The Bump: Growing - I've noticed a little more girth around my hips, though it's firm, so I think it's just expanding baby stuff and it's not, hopefully, fat.
Symptoms/How I'm feeling: Just the usual. Heartburn, aches, pains. General breathlessness. I have either completely gotten used to the nerve pain or it just stopped (or the nerve died from excessive stabbiness?) but it's not bothering me anymore. So that's pretty swell.
Food Cravings/Aversions: Nothing I can't control, and I'm still trying to get enough fruits/veggies in there (something I never struggled with prior to pregnancy, irritatingly enough.)
Sleep: Restless. I also get a lot of heartburn which is really frustrating. I wake up startled a lot now and I have no idea why. But I have to get up, make a round of the house and make sure everything is okay before I can settle down again. Very bizarre.
Weddings Rings On or Off: On still. Getting a little snug... might just take them off this week.
Exercise: Walking. Resistance band exercises have gone by the wayside but that's okay - as long as I keep walking, doctor says I'm doing okay.
Any Names Picked Out Yet: Yes! TBA at birth.
Gender: Girl!
Movement: She's pushing and rolling around a lot more now - I'm not sure why people call them "kicks" as it's really more like pressure or a flip.
Maternity Clothes: 100% (besides yoga pants) and I'm going to be looking at buying a couple of nursing bras and shirts. My current bras are not holding out very well...
Labor Signs: Not really. Occasional tightness, or BH contractions but nothing crazy.
What I miss: Lots of things .... *sigh*
Best Moment of the Week: Buying stuff for the baby room. Didn't get a crib unfortunately, as they were out of stock (I must have excellent taste!) But we're going to get one when they come in the first week of August. The baby room is all baby stuff now though, and I was finally able to put her clothes in the drawers. I thought my massage would be one of the best moments of the week but the effect of it wore off so quickly that I think it was a waste of money. Sadly. I was lying on my heating pad the following evening, so it didn't seem to do the trick.
What I’m excited about/looking forward to: Getting the damn crib! I want to get stocked and ready for my little one!
I had planned to post a picture but I think I'll wait until next week as I don't have my baby room set up yet and I don't feel like having a bump picture taken :)
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